Last year I made the resolution to be more outgoing; I think I accomplished a fair amount of that in the course of 365 days. I attended two large geek conventions, rocked out to Joan Jett at my very first concert, found friends, tried my best to be a friend, lost others and ate the best hamburger and pizza in the world, during the most wonderful summer of my life. And yes, I lived to tell the tale.
I recently replaced all four tires on my car, an unexpected purchase at the wrong time of the year but I suppose there's never a right time. I just feel like those tires this time of year; I think we all do at one moment or another. Too much pressure ripping at our seams and wondering when that last bit of friction grinding us down will prove too much. It's as if we're just hoping to make it over the next hill, alone in the darkness. I don't mean to come across as bitter or melancholy, I've had a many, many blessings in my life, much more so than a good number of people and I'm so very grateful. I try to focus on that sense of gratitude on nights such as these, when I feel really very tired in almost every sense of the word. Tired, depleted and unable to shut down. I'm thankful for my small family, my dear friends and those who are dear to me. I'm warm, I do not go hungry and I've a roof over my head at night. That in itself is far more than some have ever known.
Tomorrow is a new day. In two days it's a new year; an open page to write your own story, a canvas to paint as vividly as you will. All you must do is act quickly while the ink well is full and the paint still fluid. I wish grand masterpieces for you all.
Last year was my year of adventure, I think this year my resolution is to be more appreciative. If you've taken the time to read my rambling dear reader, I'm pretty grateful for you.
"Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts." - Charles Dickens
